8:15 AM
"Ok, on another note, ah, I called this meeting, para mabigyan tayo ng chance na makapagpasalamat at makapagpaalam na rin sa ting mga OJTs. So this is their last day."
"Aaahhhhwwwwww..."
"So, Charmaigne, Lucy, Arnold and Melinda; any last words?"
"Ha ha ha!"
"Ikam na muna Charmaigne... how did you find your stay here on Nautilus?"
"Aha ha! Sige, ah, ano, salamat sa lahat ng andito. Yun, grabe, ang dami kong natutunan sa inyo, lalo na kay Ate Lyka, pasensya na kung ang dami kong tanong. Nakukulitan ka na siguro minsan sa 'kin. Ha ha ha! Pero, seryoso, na-appreciate ko yung time na-spend ko dito sa Nautilus, ang tatalino ng mga progs, grabe, ang babait ng mga boss, tapos masaya kayo kasama lahat. Hindi ako na-bored, hindi ako na-pressure, ay mali, na-pressure pala ako, ng konti, konti lang naman, pero, yun. Sulit lahat nung experiences na nakuha ko dito, at proud ako na naging part ako ng Nautilus family. Thank you sa inyong lahat, sa inyo po Sir Robert, kay Aling Edna, asan si Manang? Ha ha ha, ka-tsismisan ko yan si Manang. Tsaka, kay Sir Max."
"Naks, special mention talaga..."
"Hala Sir Robert, hindi ah..."
"Ano naman ang masasabi mo dun Max? Ha? He he he! Any last words?"
"Uyyyyy"
"What the hell? OJT ba ko? "
"Aysus, ako na ang magsasabi, thank you daw for fixing his broken heart."
"Hala, may ganun?"
"Whoa, wait up there Robert, wala akong sinasabing ganyan, don't make things up."
"Ha ha ha!! Wala ba guys? Ralph? Wala ba siyang sinabing ganun? Ha ha ha!! Anyway, kidding aside, thank you din for being with us, you're always be a part of the Nautilus family. Pagka-graduate mo, katok ka lang d'yan sa pinto, pwede ka na agad mag-start. Ha ha ha!"
7:32 PM
"Charmaigne!"
"Sir?"
"Before you go, I want to talk to you for a second..."
"?"
"..."
"??"
*sigh
"Ano po yun?"
"Honestly, I don't know how to... to begin... I'm not... good at this thing. I..."
"?"
"I jumped."
"Jumped?"
"Oh crap! Sorry, I... shit..."
"Crap? Shit? Natatae kayo Sir? Ha ha ha!"
"Hindi... ah... no... man... Don't laugh please, I'm trying to be serious here..."
"Sorry."
"You see, this is hard for me, I mean, ang tagal kong pinag-isipan, nag-decide kung... I've been contemplating about this for weeks now, and I.. I just can't believe that I'm... I mean, look at us, I'm your supervisor, you're my trainee, and I can't blame people who might raise their eyebrows, plus the fact that I'm 5 years senior, and I... wait, do I act like a high schooler to you? I mean with what I'm doing right now, I honestly feel like a teenager..."
"..."
"I'm sorry, I'm not good at this. There's a reason why I only had one girlfriend. I mean, when people see me, their first impression would be, I'm cool, classy, babaero, presko, but honestly, I'm not. I... I hope you can see where this is going... because I really don't think I can handle this..."
"..."
"..."
"..."
"I love you. I mean, I'm in love with you. I love your foxy smile, I love your husky voice, I love that big black blotch above your eye, I love your crooked teeth, I love your permanent tan, I love your petite size, I love the way you talk, I love seeing your grin every morning, and I love you... the whole you, more than the sum of your parts..."
"..."
"..."
"..."
"Look, I don't expect you to answer anything, I mean, 'I love you' is not a question, it's a statement, right? And I... I know it feels awkward, especially with our situation, I mean, it doesn't feel and look right... ang tingin mo lang sa'kin is probably just an elder brother or an older friend and uhm... sabi ko nga, people will be raising eyebrows, even my friends, they kept joking na 'child abuse yan dude' but uh... I don't... I don't expect you to feel the same way... but, just so you know... uh.. for the short period that we've been together, you already took a special place in my breast, I mean in my chest, or heart, or dibdib, or argh... Jesus!"
"..."
"..."
"Sir..."
"Just Max, please... it feels awkward."
"Mas awkward sa 'kin, Sir, pero... ganito kasi yan eh. May priorities na ko sa buhay, nakalatag na yung dadaanan ko sa ngayon, at, sorry, kasi, wala ka po dun eh. Sorry, pero... hindi ito yung tamang... panahon. Sorry, pero hindi ko... hindi ko..."
"Hush, Charmaigne, you don't have to cry, I mean, you have no fault in this, It's... It's me who fell in love, I'm the stupid one who crossed the river kahit na everybody's telling me not to. I mean, you know me, I'm the guy with the plan, 'di ba, kaya hindi ko rin inexpect that I'll feel this way. I never wanted this before, but now, all I want to do is to give in. I love thinking about you, for every single night, looking at your Facebook profile, typing that stupid message on Skype then deleting it afterwards. I find myself waking up every morning, smiling, knowing that when I go to work, I would see your face, and I can talk to you again."
"Sir, ordinaryong tao lang ako, kagaya lang din ako ng ibang babae, walang special sa 'kin. Wag n'yong..."
"Look, I know, I know. As a matter of fact, I have everything I need in my life right now. In spite of what I've been through, I came to a realization na, masaya pala ako, na wala pala akong karapatang umiyak, at magmukmok at maging bitter sa isang sulok. I've come to appreciate a lot of things, I have a happy family, I have my friends, mga officemates. And, ganun ka rin eh. I can see na masaya ka rin sa buhay mo ngayon. You don't need me in your life to be happy, and I don't need you as well. We're both happy, but now, I want you to consider... what if there is something more in our lives, more than what we already have. We're happy, but what if we can be happier?"
"..."
"Look, wag mong isipin na kinukulit kita, or pinipipilit. I know where you're coming from, and I am glad that I've met a woman like you who knows what she wants, and is strong enough to fight for her dreams."
"Pero sir, ayoko po kayong paghintayin o paasahin. Ayokong..."
"No. It's perfectly fine. I know. I'm willing to wait."
"Sir naman eh..."
"I've waited 25 years to finally meet you, now that I did, what's another year?"
"Kayo.. pero... di ko kayo mabibigyan ng assurance.."
"It's ok, I don't need one. I jump, I fall, catch me or not, I don't really give a damn."
"..."
"So, I guess, this is it..."
"..."
"It's goodbye for now."
"..."
"Good luck with your studies... take care of yourself."
"Sige po. Ingat din po. Bye."
May 26, 2011
3:52 PM
"Ano?"
"Sabi niya, he loves me."
"Agad? Ang bilis naman. In love kaagad? Teka, eh pano yung ex niya?"
"Ewan..."
"Ano ka, panakip-butas, ganun?"
"Grabe ka naman..."
"Anong sinabi mo?"
"Sabi ko hindi."
"Binasted mo?"
"Hindi. Sabi ko lang, may mga priorities ako."
"Yun naman pala eh.."
"Anong gagawin ko bespren?"
"Ano pa bang gagawin mo na hindi mo pa nagawa?"
"Pero... "
"Hindi pala siya ang priority mo eh bakit naggagaganyan ka?"
"Hindi mo kasi naiintindihan eh!"
"Eh di i-explain mo para maintindihan ko. Kaya nga ako nandito di ba? Sino pa bang makikinig sa 'yo?"
"Ang hirap kasi, alam mo yun..."
"Hindi ko alam. Naguguluhan din ako. Akala ko ba nakaplano na ang buhay mo?"
"Akala ko din eh. Pero, ngayon, para akong pumunta ng grocery store, tapos nawala ko yung listahan ng mga bibilhin ko. Ganun kahirap."
"Hinhintayin daw n'ya ako."
"Oo, pero... ayokong mag-expect. Baka mamaya..."
"Yun na nga eh, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko... Natatakot ako"
"Ano sinabi niya pagkatapos mong sabihin na..."
"Hinhintayin daw n'ya ako."
"Talaga? Yun naman pala eh."
"Oo, pero... ayokong mag-expect. Baka mamaya..."
"Ok lang naman mag-expect paminsan-minsan eh, kailangan din kasi nating matutong tumanggap ng disappointment nang walang halong bitterness."
"Yun na nga eh, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko... Natatakot ako"
"Nalilito ka?"
"Parang..."
"Bakit ka nalilito?"
"Alam mo ba, pagkatapos n'yang sabihin na mahal n'ya ko, parang.. parang gusto kong tumalon sa tuwa, biglang gusto ko siyang yakapin na... ang saya-saya ko bigla. Pero, wala akong nagawa. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit bigla na lang akong di makapagsalita. Ang daldal ko di ba, tapos natameme ako pagkasabi niya nun. Hindi ko alam kung pano ko sasabihin sa kanya..."
"Bespren... magtapat ka nga..."
"?"
"Yung totoo mong nararamdaman."
"Ano?"
"Ano?!"
"..."
"..."
"Parang... parang mahal ko na rin siya."
WAKAS...
At last, I've finally finished my first series. Thank you for those who took time to read this simple story that I made. I know it may have looked and sounded cliche for some, some say it's just plain cute, but I'm not an ambitious writer, I'm just a storyteller.
I never really thought that I'd finish this. This is not the first time I tried writing an elaborate story, and I have wasted countless pages of paper before with no final output. I never even expected someone would read this. It's just a boy-meets-girl story, like many of us have seen and watched in films and television. But writing this, I have come to a realization that a story, no matter how simple and ridiculous, if told from the heart, is a story worth writing for.
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